Thought Vomit

Playing: "Reaper" - Sia

I love this song a lot.  It may be the happiest song about the Grim Reaper that I've ever heard.  It also may be the only song about the Grim Reaper that I've ever heard, but that's besides the point.  It's such a great song to car dance and lip sync to.

Today was a busy day.  All of this socializing that I've been doing has been taxing me, despite the fact that I know that it's good for me.  It's an odd balance being a depressed introvert.  I think I've been using my introversion as a justification to not go out, even though it's my depression that doesn't want me to go out.  But today I feel like the introvert needs a break, with or without depression.  (I don't even know if that makes sense.)

I had group this morning and it was good.  I feel like my medication is kicking in and I'm having more clarity than I've had in months.  We've been reviewing a lot of coping mechanisms and I've realized that these are things I've been doing naturally over the last year+ to deal.  Taking this time to myself was the right decision.  I'd felt so anxious about it that first week, but it's been good to step back and do some serious self care.

In the afternoon, I took a walk to the pharmacy to pick up my medication and a creepy old construction worker whistled at me.  A lot.

And this evening I had dinner with my co-workers/some former co-workers.  It was good to see them and catch up.  It put a lot of things in perspective and was just nice to be around people who've seen and supported me through so much over the last three years.

This isn't very coherent and doesn't have a point, but I just wanted to get that stuff out.